How I feel when I’m obsessed with something that nobody else understands

whatshouldwecallme:

the-mooseman:

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simplypurkey:


Gateway of the Mind
In 1983, a team of deeply pious scientists conducted a radical experiment in an undisclosed facility. The scientists had theorized that a human without access to any senses or ways to perceive stimuli would be able to perceive the presence of God. They believed that the five senses clouded our awareness of eternity, and without them, a human could actually establish contact with God by thought. An elderly man who claimed to have “nothing left to live for” was the only test subject to volunteer. To purge him of all his senses, the scientists performed a complex operation in which every sensory nerve connection to the brain was surgically severed. Although the test subject retained full muscular function, he could not see, hear, taste, smell, or feel. With no possible way to communicate with or even sense the outside world, he was alone with his thoughts.
Scientists monitored him as he spoke aloud about his state of mind in jumbled, slurred sentences that he couldn’t even hear. After four days, the man claimed to be hearing hushed, unintelligible voices in his head. Assuming it was an onset of psychosis, the scientists paid little attention to the man’s concerns.
Two days later, the man cried that he could hear his dead wife speaking with him, and even more, he could communicate back. The scientists were intrigued, but were not convinced until the subject started naming dead relatives of the scientists. He repeated personal information to the scientists that only their dead spouses and parents would have known. At this point, a sizable portion of scientists left the study.
After a week of conversing with the deceased through his thoughts, the subject became distressed, saying the voices were overwhelming. In every waking moment, his consciousness was bombarded by hundreds of voices that refused to leave him alone. He frequently threw himself against the wall, trying to elicit a pain response. He begged the scientists for sedatives, so he could escape the voices by sleeping. This tactic worked for three days, until he started having severe night terrors. The subject repeatedly said that he could see and hear the deceased in his dreams.
Only a day later, the subject began to scream and claw at his non-functional eyes, hoping to sense something in the physical world. The hysterical subject now said the voices of the dead were deafening and hostile, speaking of hell and the end of the world. At one point, he yelled “No heaven, no forgiveness” for five hours straight. He continually begged to be killed, but the scientists were convinced that he was close to establishing contact with God.
After another day, the subject could no longer form coherent sentences. Seemingly mad, he started to bite off chunks of flesh from his arm. The scientists rushed into the test chamber and restrained him to a table so he could not kill himself. After a few hours of being tied down, the subject halted his struggling and screaming. He stared blankly at the ceiling as teardrops silently streaked across his face. For two weeks, the subject had to be manually rehydrated due to the constant crying. Eventually, he turned his head and, despite his blindness, made focused eye contact with a scientist for the first time in the study. He whispered “I have spoken with God, and he has abandoned us” and his vital signs stopped. There was no apparent cause of death.

I’ve been waiting for this post to show back up on my dash for months

Holy shit

Someone needs to perk up and get the balls to make this into a movie.

the-mooseman:

z-ay:

simplypurkey:

Gateway of the Mind

In 1983, a team of deeply pious scientists conducted a radical experiment in an undisclosed facility. The scientists had theorized that a human without access to any senses or ways to perceive stimuli would be able to perceive the presence of God. They believed that the five senses clouded our awareness of eternity, and without them, a human could actually establish contact with God by thought. An elderly man who claimed to have “nothing left to live for” was the only test subject to volunteer. To purge him of all his senses, the scientists performed a complex operation in which every sensory nerve connection to the brain was surgically severed. Although the test subject retained full muscular function, he could not see, hear, taste, smell, or feel. With no possible way to communicate with or even sense the outside world, he was alone with his thoughts.

Scientists monitored him as he spoke aloud about his state of mind in jumbled, slurred sentences that he couldn’t even hear. After four days, the man claimed to be hearing hushed, unintelligible voices in his head. Assuming it was an onset of psychosis, the scientists paid little attention to the man’s concerns.

Two days later, the man cried that he could hear his dead wife speaking with him, and even more, he could communicate back. The scientists were intrigued, but were not convinced until the subject started naming dead relatives of the scientists. He repeated personal information to the scientists that only their dead spouses and parents would have known. At this point, a sizable portion of scientists left the study.

After a week of conversing with the deceased through his thoughts, the subject became distressed, saying the voices were overwhelming. In every waking moment, his consciousness was bombarded by hundreds of voices that refused to leave him alone. He frequently threw himself against the wall, trying to elicit a pain response. He begged the scientists for sedatives, so he could escape the voices by sleeping. This tactic worked for three days, until he started having severe night terrors. The subject repeatedly said that he could see and hear the deceased in his dreams.

Only a day later, the subject began to scream and claw at his non-functional eyes, hoping to sense something in the physical world. The hysterical subject now said the voices of the dead were deafening and hostile, speaking of hell and the end of the world. At one point, he yelled “No heaven, no forgiveness” for five hours straight. He continually begged to be killed, but the scientists were convinced that he was close to establishing contact with God.

After another day, the subject could no longer form coherent sentences. Seemingly mad, he started to bite off chunks of flesh from his arm. The scientists rushed into the test chamber and restrained him to a table so he could not kill himself. After a few hours of being tied down, the subject halted his struggling and screaming. He stared blankly at the ceiling as teardrops silently streaked across his face. For two weeks, the subject had to be manually rehydrated due to the constant crying. Eventually, he turned his head and, despite his blindness, made focused eye contact with a scientist for the first time in the study. He whispered “I have spoken with God, and he has abandoned us” and his vital signs stopped. There was no apparent cause of death.

I’ve been waiting for this post to show back up on my dash for months

Holy shit

Someone needs to perk up and get the balls to make this into a movie.

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farrahtales:

[TW: EATING DISORDERS] “It Ain’t Skinny They Hate” - a slam poem about thin privilege

(this is my first time so I’m sorry if it’s terrible)
(also I know over-apologizing is somewhat of a turn off)
(but shh I’m Canadian it’s in my nature)

Every now and then I get told to
“Eat a sandwich!”
“Where’s your meat?”
“You’re all skin and bones, put some more on your plate!”
I don’t like it, but
it ain’t skinny they hate

I see the crusty-pixelled saved and resaved facebook jpegs
“Real men like curves, only dogs go for bones!”
and no I don’t wanna see it
especially when I got small tits
and wish
I had an ass that didn’t stab people’s laps
when I sit on them, but
it ain’t skinny they hate

and I know skinny isn’t always strong
skinny isn’t immune to pinching itself
glaring at itself
loathing, over-working, and starving itself
and spewing its breakfast in the washroom at school
but it isn’t because they’re running from skinny

it’s because they’re running from fat

and no they’re not always polite
but they could be on the defense
trying to cope with the privileges fat’s denied, and skinny’s afforded
can you blame them?
if you didn’t understand
why why why why
all your life
the body you were born into isn’t regarded as inherently RIGHT

I get told to eat a sandwich

my baby sister gets to grow up
compared to me, who didn’t diet or exercise
but is told that she HAS to diet and exercise
to look like me

that she wasn’t fine and perfect just the way she was
with chubby arms bared in a sundress
dipping cookies
into a glass of milk
on the front porch

like it’s so fucking taboo to have told her
she doesn’t need to improve
that her body was just as okay as mine

and I don’t know what that’s like

to be policed for my size
to be punished by society, including those who love me
for, of all things, my weight

because
it ain’t skinny they hate

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why fall in love when you can fall asleep?

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yesimliveinlivingcolor:

whatsafangirltodo:

elderpricette:

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oh my god i love this so much

I SHIP IT

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shitsnothilarious:

So, whoever made this has taught me more in this one pic set than 12 years of grade school, 4 years of college and my ongoing years in law school. 

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erotischenay:

Omg lmfao

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